#7 Tears:Today we loaded up boxes and all our furniture into a large horse trailer. We were planning on doing it tomorrow after graduation, but a bunch of guys were available this afternoon - so we packed. As we started to move furniture - the snow started to fall... it is still falling. We are suppose to get a foot and I think we are about there. Our house is bare except for those annoying odds and ends floating around, but I think I was able to corral most of it into the guest room.
Tonight as I was tucking Ethan into bed he started to cry... big crocodile tears. "Momma, I don't want to move! I don't want to leave our house." It broke my heart and made me tear up! Telling him things are going to be okay... seems hollow - fake. I told him - things are going to be hard, but we will get through it. I told him, "It okay cuz we will always be friends, right?" He replied, "I sure hope so!"
Tomorrow we pack the rest up... and on Sunday we say goodbye. My poor kiddos are sicker than sick - with horrible coughs and high fevers. I know we will get through this... yes, through the tears... I can see an end/beginning in sight! I pray that I am turning the last page on the loneliest chapter of my life... at least I sure hope... and I am begging God for community and fellowship in our next chapter!!!