Tuesday, September 30, 2008
This morning I am finishing up the school's newsletter - 2,400 labels, 1,200 staples, 1,200 envelopes, and about 100 rubber bands... and over 12 hours (so far)! I am always so relieved when I finish this task! This time it was a little more difficult due to little fingers and BIG desires to rearrange anything the little fingers can grab a hold of! Sometimes I wonder how I manage two full-time jobs (mommy and MWSB staff) - lately I have merely been surviving instead of living - and thankful I know that it is just a short season! God has been teaching me so many new things - that having this mindless task of preparing a mailing is great "thinking/processing" time. Although, I feel more of a pressure to finish up the newsletter because I am teaching class on Thursday. It is a morning class about the spiritual discipline of journaling - how fun is that! I love to journal! I love it that I can process my thoughts about God and life through the tip of a pen (or the click of the keys). Hopefully this afternoon, I can get my "thought notes" on paper and feel more prepared. I am excited, so for now... I really need to go..... rubber bands.... stacks of newsletters... here I come!
Monday, September 29, 2008
On Saturday, Micah, Ethan and I went on a drive to take pictures and enjoy the beautiful weather. Micah has been giving me photography lessons and I am slowly beginning to understand ISO and stuff like that (don't give me a quiz, because I will fail!). I am thankful that he is a patient teacher. I love the pictures he takes and can't wait for him to buy a new camera so that I can get his old one! His camera is a few steps UP from my trusty point and shoot. Taking pictures is definitely something Micah and I love to do together - it is a fun, artistic outlet!
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Last night after Bible study I was getting Ethan ready for bed when I heard a knock at the door. Some of my Bible study girls had returned holding tiny little kittens they had found in the ditch at the end of our driveway. In the back of my mind I knew that my cat was pregnant again, but already? Didn't SHE JUST HAVE KITTENS! Well to make a long story short... I discovered 2 more this morning and YES they are Twitch's babies (one was already dead).... so after working so hard to get back down to 2 cats... we are back up to 5.... again! I guess it is my destiny!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
This morning while Ethan slept, he constructed and wrote his birthday thank you cards… ah the life of a child! Writing thank you notes is something I have always enjoyed, because I really feel like I am a thankful person. It blows me away when I receive a letter or card or what is even better… a package. I have been asked what I think my love language is and I honestly answer by saying… ALL of them. I am a love hungry person.
With that I have to be seriously honest… so if you aren’t one who cares much for raw honesty… please… oh please stop reading. God has been opening my eyes to little hidden pockets of "stuff" in my life that I like to conveniently label… hurt or rejection or pain… or you name it. I said before that I love to write thank you notes and I do, but do you want to know what I think about everything I sit down to write….??? I am unlovable. A comment was made about me over 10 years ago… it was something like if Christa ever wants to survive in ministry (which is a support raising income) she needs to learn how to be more grateful. I have an idea who said this, but I am not sure… but that comment is what I think about every time I sit down to write. As I wrote this morning I could not help reflecting on that comment because lately something else has been stirring in my heart. Last week I finally figured out that somehow… years ago I programmed my brain to think that the only way I could be loved is by being perfect (oh... let me tell you how often that happens... hum... never!). When I fail someone or even make a breakfast coffee cake that Micah does not like (com’on I know it had butternut squash in it… but it is still yummy… right?) I am instantly undeserving of love. I wish I could just turn a switch and not think that way anymore, but we are talking about a serious brain pattern of thinking.
It is kinda silly to me that little lies can become thought patterns. It is hard to type... but I know I am love-able... because God loves me... I know I have my minutes, hours, days, and some times even months. Hopefully little by little I can believe that more!
But for today... I am telling myself that I AM a thankful person and whoever made that comment... I forgive you for saying that untruthful thing about me.... I honestly don't want to think about it again.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
There are those days.... and today is one of those days.... It is hard to imagine it would be one of those days - especially being fall-time, but it is one of those days. It is hard to describe these days... isolation comes to mind - colorless - sounds even better.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Welcome Fall... today we are celebrating the first day of FALL... I love this season... everything about it is wonderful. Inspired by all the wonderful harvest veggies and a definite need to find more creative ways for Ethan to eat veggies I made a pot of "Harvest Soup". I really did not follow a recipe... I just used a couple boneless chicken thighs, about 4 cups of water, and a handful of cut up carrots, and about a tablespoon of sliced garlic for the broth. I let is gently boil until the chicken was mostly cooked. Then in a skillet I put 2 T of olive oil, a cubed potato, a cubed carrot, and sliced garlic and sautéed until tender.. then I added a small yellow summer squash, a small zucchini, and the cut up chicken from the broth (in the broth I put 1/4 cup split peas and 1/4 cup of lentils and let boil). After a couple minutes I added 2 cups of spinach and let it steam for about 2 minutes. Then I added all the veggies to the lentils and broth and let simmer for about 45 minutes. (oh.. I added a little chili powder, garlic salt, and salt- to taste).
Sunday, September 21, 2008
After a delicious lunch at Mel's Diner in Augusta, we drove up to Cataract falls. I had never been there, but have wanted to go for many years. It was nice to have the excuse of showing Micah and Daniela around. Even though a storm was coming in, we still managed to hike up to the falls, play in the water, take a few 100 group pictures, and get back to the car before the rain started to sprinkle. On the way home I was thinking about how much I love being outdoors - with my camera and those I love. Now I am off to take a little Sunday snooze!
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Friday, September 19, 2008
Sometimes I struggle with being critical of other people and what they do or do not do... well.... God has really been convicting me about that. Micah and I often talk about erring on the side of love instead of judgment... and that is really what I want to be about... love. God has given me a way to love one of my friends. The last few months have been such a tough time in her life. Without much detail - money is tight and you know how much stress that creates. She is having a garage sale tomorrow - so I spent the morning sorting through my house looking for things to donate to the sale ... I figured cinnamon rolls and cookies would work too... it is really a joy to be able to love through the work of my hands. Please pray for my friend... for peace for her heart.
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Last week Micah led a group of 11 students 70 miles across the Bob Marshall Wilderness. Thankfully they all returned in one piece. It started to snow the morning after they reached Lake LaVale and so instead of taking a day to rest they hiked out a day early.